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    “I Literally  Hate Who I Am When I Am In Love”: Billie Eilish Opens Up About Having Power And Control Issues In Romantic Relationships

    Billie Eilish has had a rather unconventional take on matters of the love and sexuality. The singer recently came out as queer and has since been since mingling with and talking about people of both genders as her romantic and sexual interests. Now the singer has opened up about the more sensitive sides of a romantic relationship, as she talked about being vulnerable.

    Billie Eilish revealed that she struggles with vulnerability and control in romantic relationships during an interview with Lana Del Rey for Interview‘ magazine. Eilish revealed that she dislikes who she becomes when she’s in love. Here’s why.

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    Billie Eilish Doesn’t Like “Being Vulnerable In A Romantic Way”

    Billie Eilish
    Billie Eilish

    Billie Eilish is a megastar when it comes to music. But she’s just another struggling woman in her early 20s when it comes to matters of love. She was recently asked a rather “big” by Lana Del Ray during a recent interview, to which Eilish gave quite an unexpected answer.

     “When one of your romantic relationships ends, do you think you leave them with a thousand questions? Or do they leave you with a thousand questions? Or is it split 50-50? Is it more dangerous to fall in love with you? Or is it more dangerous for you to fall in love?” Lana Del Ray asked Eilish during the interview.

    Big question, Lana,” Eilish said, before adding, “I don’t even know. I think 50-50 is probably accurate. I literally hate who I am so much when I’m in love.” Eilish detailed how her need for control affects her romantic relationships.

    I really don’t like being — I was going to say out of control, but there’s ways that I do like being out of control,” Eilish said. “I have a power issue and a control issue, and I also don’t like being vulnerable in a romantic way. It makes me feel uncomfortable, and I don’t know how many times I’ve really been in love,” she said, adding that while there are different forms of love, not all of them are profound.

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    Billie Eilish Confesses To Being “Obsessed With The Idea Of Nonchalance” In Relationships

    Billie Eilish
    Billie Eilish

    Billie Eilish’s last known serious relationship was with ‘The Neighbourhood’s frontman Jesse Rutherford, whom she has also referred to as her favorite person in the world even after the breakup.

    After Eilish’s detailed response, Lana Del Ray pointed out that Eilish has been quite brave being vulnerable in songs like ‘The Greatest‘ and ‘Skinny‘ from her latest album, ‘Hit Me Hard and Soft’. Del Rey’s observation led to a deeper discussion about Eilish’s ability to hide her pain and discomfort in relationships.

    It’s interesting to be a person who isn’t an outwardly sensitive complainer,” Eilish said. “A lot of moments on this album are about situations where I was like, ‘I’d rather be tortured inside but have somebody think that I’m cool, than have somebody think that I’m hysterical and actually express my feelings.’ So many songs on this album reflect that realization of, like, ‘Maybe I’m obsessed with the idea of nonchalance‘” she admitted.

    Eilish further acknowledged that she often comes across as indifferent in her relationships, despite caring deeply about people. “I care about people and I have love and passion, but in relationships, I found myself never ever expressing any of my needs,” she said.

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    Aishwarya is a Senior Sub-Editor at First Curiosity. Working as a news writer for over 3 years, she has written on an array of things for a couple of media houses in different capacities. With writing as her outlet, she is now exploring the world of art and glamour. Her love for films and writing stems from her fondness for words and all things artsy. An avid reader and writer alike, Aishwarya likes to delve into any and all forms of art.

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